Tuesday, January 19, 2016

Sam- I'm Scared Guys- 1-19-16


Pretty much my entire life I have told myself "I want to be an English teacher"
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Until

 "I want to be an English teacher"
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 "......."
"Why?"

Why do I have to be an English teacher?



well... you- y- you hav- I- I don't know, at least not for sure.



I keep telling myself I have to be an English teacher



But I don't know if I am doing it because I want to


I'm doing it because that's the only thing I believe I can do

But- I don't want to do that
I don't know what I want to do
people my age already have colleges talking to them
and just now I'm realizing this
I don't know what to do
I don't think I am good enough at things to have a job
I am not talented enough
and now I'm taking the mid terms and I just can't
I don't know what I am doing with my life
I just wish the universes I make up in my head exsisted, where I could be happy

Hope you guys have a good day/week/month/year/lifetime/beyond
Love Sam




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